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"Do all the good you can, in all the ways you can, to all the souls you can, in every place you can, at all the times you can, with all the zeal you can, as long as ever you can"


 


"Here’s to the crazy ones.

The misfits. The rebels.

The troublemakers.

The round pegs in the square holes.

The ones who see things differently.

They’re not fond of rules. And they have no respect for the status quo.

You can praise them, disagree with them, quote them, disbelieve them, glorify or vilify them. About the only thing you can’t do is ignore them. Because they change things.

They invent.

They imagine.

 They heal.

They explore.

They create.

They inspire.

They push the human race forward.

Maybe they have to be crazy.


How else can you stare at an empty canvas and see a work of art?


Or sit in silence and hear a song that’s never been written?


Or gaze at a red planet and see a laboratory on wheels?


We make tools for these kinds of people.


While some see them as the crazy ones, we see genius.


Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do."


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DROWNING POOL MAKING US PROUD



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BONNE JUSTICE

It’s the sweet law of men
They make wine from grapes
They make fire from coal
They make men from kisses

It’s the true law of men
Kept intact despite
the misery and war
despite danger of death

It’s the warm law of men
To change water to light
Dream to reality
Enemies to friends

A law old and new
Self perfecting always
From the depths of a child's heart
To the height's of supreme reason

-P.Eluard




ARTICLE FROM THE VILLAGE MAGAZINE




You hear a ton of performers daily, who is your favorite and why?

That used to be a hard question to answer because in this business you hear so many great bands so often that it was hard to ever pick just one. Recent events though have profoundly altered that seemingly chaotic sense of total and utter indecision. Now when this question arises there is only one answer. For now and for eternity my favorite band is Drowning Pool.

That used to be a hard question to answer because in this business you hear so many great bands so often that it was hard to ever pick just one. Recent events though have profoundly altered that seemingly chaotic sense of total and utter indecision. Now when this question arises there is only one answer. For now and for eternity my favorite band is
You recently went overseas. What did you do there and what was it like?

Back in June our station approached the USO about taking my show on the road to the troops in Iraq and/or Afghanistan.  We wanted to bring a band and the USO literally started drooling when they heard the name Drowning Pool

Drowning Pools music has been ubiquitous in the various combat zones since their song Bodies came out back in 2001. Their music is frequently used as both motivation and inspiration, so to have the band physically go over and play live for our troops was going to be HUGE. 

And it was.

Due to the voter referendums and the ensuing safety concerns, the shows ended up being in Kuwait rather than "in the box". We did three shows for a total of 10,000 U.S. and Coalition troops at Camp Virginia, Buerhing and Arifjan. Every day we were in Kuwait was 16 to 18 hours in length and encompassed facility tours, meeting commanders, meeting and eating with the troops, sound checks and full on, in your face, full blast two hour plus performances.

Each performance was dazzling in it's own right, but it is what happened every night AFTER the stage show that REALLY rocked our troops. Drowning Pool had been going full throttle all day every day, but everyone at each show wanted to meet them. So after every performance, Drowning Pool would come off stage and immediately and quite literally STAND in the sand next to the stage for HOURS.

Over the course of the tour Drowning Pool actually proceeded to meet all 10,000 troops. This meant 4 hours at Camp Virginia, 6 hours at Buerhing, and 8 hours at Arifjan. The band did not just drone a mumbled hello, scribble a non-chalant signature and send a soldier on his way.   There were passionate hugs and radiant smiles and photos taken and given.

And if a service man or woman happened to be from Texas then you know the people behind them in line would be waiting a couple of extra more minutes, because Texans LOVE other Texans and we got to say so.


The response to the band was immediate and DRAMATIC.

Drowning Pools astounding integrity and collective character as both artists and men really knocked the socks off everyone including the military brass who in wide-eyed amazement and gratitude bestowed each band member with numerous battalion challenge coins and medals.

Not to be outdone by their commanders, the grunts proceeded to offer their own brand of personal gratitude. Heroes are men who do what they can. One by one and by the hundreds these still sweat soaked and thrilled service-members whipped out their Gerber service blades, cut off the patches and name badges on their uniforms and with trembling hands gave a piece of themselves to the utterly stupefied band members.

It was breath-taking to witness firsthand and a story impossible to relate without a steady stream of tears.

On an intensely personal note let me add that prior to this journey I had always liked Drowning Pools music. But witnessing their incredibly tender and passionate personal attention to each of these men and women in arms forced me to call NASA so that they could help me track the admiration as it exploded into the stratosphere!

Now the only way that I can accurately convey the magic of what occurred, is to equate the generous and tangible spirit of these heavenly human beings in Drowning Pool to the Seraphim, the angels closest to God. They surround his throne with their thunderous music and regulate the movement of the heavens with their songs.

Did one soldiers story in particular touch your heart?

I will always remember the Marine I met on a landing zone in Iraq. After the tour of Kuwait with Drowning Pool ended, I went solo in country with the 206th BOD(Broadcast Operations Detachment) based in Baghdad.


On the second day, we were going to Al Faw Palace and then on to Camp Victory to broadcast on Armed Forces Radio.  To get there we had to fly Space A(space available) on a Blackhawk.  So while my military escort was taking care of the requisite paperwork at the Washington LZ, I took a seat in the corner to wait.  While sitting there, a large contingent of burly Marines came in and one of them stopped in his tracks right in front of me and laughed long and loud...primarily because it was obvious that despite the Kevlar helmet and body armor I was not exactly military issue.  He laughed even harder when he discovered that I was being escorted by Army officials but was clearly wearing Marine issue body armor.  A ridiculous mistake I did not realize until I was already in Iraq and it was too late to fix.  This Marine Lt. Col., was so intrigued by my obvious ignorance to military protocol that with a huge incredulous smile, he LOUDLY drug a chair from halfway across the room, plopped down right in front of me and in a booming voice inquired...COMMANDED  "what the hell are you doin' HERE"?

I asked if I could record the exchange and explained that I was a dj from Dallas, here to find out what our troops had to say about their experiences in the combat zone. He didn't hold back.  He curled up his lip and practically snarled that he hated the media because they never told the whole story.  His demeanor  seemed to soften as he scanned me up and down and announced with sheer loyal Lone Star pride that he was from Austin and since I was also from Texas added  "you MUST be ok!"

He proceeded to speak about leading his units passionate efforts to assist in the reconstruction process in Iraq and how monumentally frustrated his unit and others were that the journalists they were constantly bumping into only seemed interested in focusing on the discord, blood and mayhem.  He started to get audibly and visibly upset so I thought I would try to diffuse the situation by changing course and asking about his family back home and if he had a message for them...it was at this point that the earth beneath us seemed to give way creating the intense sensation of a total free fall .

We were enveloped in a lengthy, palpable silence as he looked at me with a gaping stare that was so deeply haunting that even now I have no words to accurately describe it.  The stare seemed to last forever and just as I tried to re-phrase the question, I suddenly saw the tears.  They were streaming down his face and he was clearly overwhelmed.  He took a moment, looked away then came back composed, but still full of raw emotion.  The next words he spoke were full of strength and passion as he talked with tremendous affection about his mom and dad and friends back home. About how much he missed not only them but also the little things. The comforts that most of us take for granted and would have no idea how much we missed until they were summarily revoked and replaced with sand.

It was then time for him to go and we shook hands as he got up to leave...but he walked backwards to the door still staring in curious wonder at the seemingly out of place fellow Texan standing behind and/or in front of him.  I will never forget him.

How would you describe the environment there?

I have been to a zillion rock concerts but never one that was this heavily fortified with M16s, 9MM and the occasional M60 sniper rifle. EVERYONE was armed, even the kids in their PT uniforms.

There are no words in this or any other language that can accurately represent the atmosphere..because it was one so unlike earths. The second we walked into the first camp, I felt like we were on an entirely different planet. That sensation was prevalent at all three camps as well as my solo jaunt into Iraq.

The atmosphere in all locales was thick with sand and worry, sand and depression, sand and anxiety. The only time that palpable sense of anguish and potential doom was abated was when the music was blaring.

Did your feeling change about the war after you went overseas?

No, I am still confused by it. But that confusion has no bearing on my love, respect and 100 upport for our troops.

Do you plan to go back again?

The experience of going to Kuwait and then on in to Iraq with the Army's 206th BOD was extraordinary. 
Prior to departure my drill instructor at the boot camp fitness program I joined to prepare told me....
WARNED me that this journey, this "mission" would be life changing.
I did not comprehend or appreciate the full weight of his words until I came home and found the previous life I had known was nowhere to be found.

To illustrate the gravity of that point I will confess that I can not bring myself to unpack the bags that went with me over there.

They are still covered in dirt and sand and sitting in the hallway by the door.

Waiting. If the call comes, I'm ready.




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"Oh! I have slipped the surly bonds of earth
And danced the skies on laughter-silvered wings;
Sunward I've climbed, and joined the tumbling mirth
Of sun-split clouds - and done a hundred things You have not dreamed of

- wheeled and soared and swung High in the sunlit silence. Hov'ring there I've chased the shouting wind along, and flung My eager craft through footless halls of air.
Up, up the long delirious, burning blue, I've topped the windswept heights with easy grace Where never lark, or even eagle flew

- And, while with silent lifting mind I've trod The high untresspassed sanctity of space, Put out my hand and touched the face of God" -John Gillespie Magee

SKYDIVING WITH THE US ARMY GOLDEN KNIGHTS







3/14/08

"If riding in an airplane is flying, then riding in a boat is swimming. If you want to experience the element, then get out of the vehicle."

Never let it be said that I did not follow these directions.... I leapt "out of the vehicle" today by flying up to heaven with the US Army’s Golden Knights.  At 13,500 feet I stepped into the ether and joined my instructor Billy V for a 120 mph free fall.

...and here 4 hours later I am still trembling, pondering, terrified and exhilirated and exhausted. I feel like some sort of burrito of emotions.  Layer upon layer of wildly conflicting sensations that I am at a loss to describe. Suffice it to say I am wrapped up in awe.

If you have never had the pleasure of exquisite terror that this sort of leap of faith provides, I have a nutshell visual that pretty much sums up how it felt

Did you ever see Look Who’s Talking?  Do you remember the scene when Bruce Willis character narrates his own birth?

He is nice and safe and warm in the comfort of his mama’s womb and enjoying the sounds of Jimi Hendrix when he becomes suddenly intrigued by the distant light. One push and he is hurling toward it, SCREAMING from the force of the rush.  There is nothing to grab onto, nothing to slow you down as you plummet into the unknown.

That is a little of what it is like to be standing IN the airplane and then suddenly push off, ARCH and hurl your body into the wind.  The force of of which adds to the terror because it is all in your face. The plummet was so pronounced that your cheeks become jowels whose consistency is that of  jelly usually reserved for toast.

The terror increases by degrees because it was ALL sensations all at once and at it’s peak the red alert in my head sounded like a air raid warning.  It was sensory overload. The overload created further weirdness because body functions became obsolete and even exasperating. I forgot simple mundane tasks such as breathing.  The wind feels like a pounding and continuous gale force blast. It slaps your bare cheeks with the relentless fury of a woman scorned.  The earth is far away and yet approaching with a speed that I am sure only NASCAR drivers and astronauts have any frame of reference for. So all of that in my face stole focus and I totally forgot to breathe which made me dizzy and disoriented. But the wind would fly up my nose and force the issue.

It is the weirdest sensation to be breathless and gasping for air at once. It was like being suffocated with pure oxygen.  I tried not to pay attention to the temperature which at that altitude was -10.

Ohhhhh...And while all of that is happening there is a guy with a video camera on his helmet right in front of you but in my case I was so shocked by everything going on and coming up around me that not only did I forget to breathe I forgot to smile and/or mug for the camera. I had seen countless videos of people just having a blast during their jumps but in my sheer terror I forgot to do any of that.

The energy was so palpable you could taste it, there was texture and a flavor so remarkable I wonder if I will ever find the right word to accurately describe it.

We were only half way to earth at this point

At 6000 feet Billy V ordered me to put my feet on top of his and to pull on the straps above him which deployed the droge shoot which would slow our descent and allow for the primary shoot to be deployed.

THAT was the next degree in the ratchet of terror because in the prep class Billy said this was when most people barfed. I had not felt sick until we were in the plane and wondered if I would be THAT girl.  The training class was hilarious because Billy said that if you thought you were gonna throw up to pull your suit out and away from your chest and barf down your front. That would minimize splatter and keep everyone clean. "It ain’t purty when someone pukes into the wind"

He pulled the droge and we got sucked back up into the sky with staggering speed that again I forgot to breathe. PS Suffocation has no baring on bile and I could taste it and just when I toyed with the idea of seriously puking down my front he deployed the primary shoot and gave ME control by putting my hands on each lever.   I could not pull my suit away to puke so had to endure. Well who knew that solved that....here is an idea just don’t puke.

"When the people look like ants-PULL,
When the ants look like people-PRAY."

He said we were going to have some fun and to pull a hard left, he had me yank down on the lever and we SPIRALED to the left in another maneuver that happened so fast it felt like plummeting...oh look here comes the earth

If ever the words HOLY and SH*T were appropriate, it was in this particular moment. Truer words have never been uttered. They were and with considerable volume I might add.

"Out of 10,000 feet of fall, always remember that the last half inch hurts the most." -- Captain Charles W. Purcell, 1932

It was coming time to land and I was scared again.  Let me tell you this...when it comes to skydiving for the first time, I think there is such a thing as TOO much information.  YES safety and good instruction is key but the nitty gritty details and thinking too much will psych you out and you will make stupid mistakes. Yoda got it right.  You have to trust the force in order to understand it and ultimately master it. 

 

I KNEW this and yet...

 

The key to a good landing is, as irony would have it, is a strong fetal position and my uniform facilitated a good fetal position as each leg had grips so that you could hoist your legs up as far as possible to ensure a safe landing.  Everything seemed to be going good. Billy wanted to do a stand land so I was geared to "just step off the escalator"...this was when Yoda took a coffee break and I became the glunk that got thunk. I THUNK to hard and became a human surf board....

 

I stepped off the escalator but unlike most astute and COHERENT shoppers FORGOT to keep stepping so I caused a minor calamity and got royally "surfed".  That is, Billy toppled on top of me like a man hopping on a surf board and he rode me for 40 yards to a photo finish that I am sure will be mocked endlessly for years to come.

 

Oh were not done. The cameraman wants an interview. But I cannot form complete sentences so I just stand there stammering like a fool.

I would love to say I was elated but I was really in shock.  I still am.  I am happy but also so staggered by the experience that I need a couple of days to ruminate and perhaps even weep.

 

The experience made me laugh in wonder about the old cliche about men who fall asleep right after sex.  I NEVER understood why they do that. Today I do.

 

There was such a tremendous release that even now hours later I am desperatly craving a cigarette and a nap.

 

This experience was a stunning culmination of three years of passionate work on behalf of the military. 

 

Todays adventure has changed me.

 

It reminds me of that first USO tour with Drowning Pool and the embed in Iraq.  We were all so focused on boosting troop morale that it never occured to any of us what would happen to our souls when we came home.  We had no way of knowing how much we would grow and be forever changed by the experience. And the continued revelations related to the metamorphoses would fall on the deaf and frequently disinterested ears of loved ones who had no frame of reference to genuinely understand.

 

Ultimately there is really no way to really prepare for adventures of this magnitude. You can read all the books, you can watch all the documentaries, you can do what I did and sign up for boot camp fitness to try to some how get ready for the enormity of the mission...but nothing ABSOLUTELY nothing can truly prepare you for the heartpounding kinetic energy that is part and parcel of a leap of faith. And leap I did

 

As I have grappled with my burrito of emotions I am strangely reminded of the limited choice presented to so many girls in my culture.  Would you rather be pretty or smart? My answer is the palpably invisible third option...

 

I would rather be brave.

 

Sadly I wasn’t entirely brave today but I hope I somehow managed a baby step in that direction.  It is frequently said that imitation is the sincerest form of flattery and I would like to be brave as a measure of my passionate admiration for our troops and especially for these Knights of Gold who graciously invited me to join them for a rare personal tour of God’s country. I stepped out of that vehicle and into pure wonder. I am left totally transformed.  Gentlemen I think I might have left my heart up there.  I give it to you with passionate gratitude.

 

Hey mom!!!  You wanted me to let you know if I survived. I will do you one better.  Auntie Mame always used to say "life is a banquet and most poor suckers are starving to death! You have to live! Live! Live!"

 

Hey guess what...

 

I "LIVED!"





3 o'clock 3some 8/28
Thursday 08-28-2008 3:23pm CT


Ahhh yes the consternation regarding todays threesome

Lot of cranky calls about the circuitous nature of todays answer....forgive my silly approach. My only excuse is that I have been doing threesomes for 8 years and some days my brain is less a brain and closer to tapioca puddin'.

Today I played Chevelle (a car)
I needed a Ma reference so I played a song from Seethers album Finding Beauty in Negative Spaces because the Japanese word for negative space is Ma
Finally I played Green Days song When I Come Around.

The answer was
Car Ma...Karma>0)

He He don't like it? Then go git your own durn threesome
PRE VMA Broadcast from Paramount Studios
Thursday 08-28-2008 2:48pm CT



Westwood One sent out an open invitation to join them for some pre VMA festivities in Los Angeles and you know I am not one to pass up a golden travel opportunity.

WOW!!!

The last three road trips I have been on were to Afghanistan, Iraq and West Africa. THIS trip will be a breeze by comparison. I am DELIRIOUS at the prospects ahead especially since only one of the three days I am there will be booked solid.

I am flying out on the third and have already made arrangements to pull a Girls Next Door adventure by signing up for a two hour trail ride through the Hollywood Hills...the ride will take us directly beneath the Hollywood sign and down toward the Griffith Observatory.  I am so excited about this part of the trip that I am driving out to a ranch this weekend to take some riding lessons. 

Hot dogs at Pinks and a saucy jaunt to Trashy's lingerie are also on my dreamers list of things to do. 40 Deuce is too if I can find a date willing to tolerate my passion for vintage burlesque clubs.

This trip to Hollywood is turning into a lesson in the art of trapeze.  I am flying without a net so to speak.  The broadcast at Paramount should be interesting  because I have not received any information yet on what exactly is  going to happen.  Those in the know say that the tradition on these sorts of junkets is that you sit there "doin yo thang" and they will bring random singers, actors and the occasional Olympic champion by for an interview. No one seems to know who will be there yet so to prepare I have had to comb through the list of nominees and presenters and performers and learn about ALL of them just in case.  Ha a week away and my brain is already turning to mush.  I wonder if this has ever happened to Barbara Walters?

HONK FOR FONK(REAL insurance commercial)
Wednesday 08-27-2008 4:17pm CT


3 o'clock 3some 8/27
Wednesday 08-27-2008 3:18pm CT



Brick
Face down
The Hardest Button to Button

The answer was Texas Hold'Em
The book I mentioned in the 4 O'Clock flashback(click for details)
Tuesday 08-26-2008 1:55pm CT


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3 o'clock 3some 8/26
Tuesday 08-26-2008 3:30pm CT


Holiday
Stay together for the kids
I'm so sick

The answer was popular excuses
3 o'clock 3some 8/25
Monday 08-25-2008 3:16pm CT


Todays threesome was sort of spastic. I needed a money reference so I played Breaking Benjamin. The 2 was the focus of the second song by Blur (Song 2) and the third song was Ready to Go (by Republica)

The answer was the popular phrase

One for the money
Two for the show
Three to get ready
and Four to go
Ohhh Henry! Can we try a different position?
Tuesday 08-26-2008 1:14pm CT




Current mood: crushed


The second half of this past weekend was spent in vigorous carapace maintenance. I withdrew to the deepest part of my shell after a disasterous interview with the band Linkin Park.

Saturday was the Project Revolution tour here in DFW. I was incredibly excited because I am....WAS a huge fan of Linkin Park. The opportunity to finally interview them in person had me on a personal high all week.


I prepped the interview for several days and although I was only going to get to speak to Mike Shinoda it was cool because I had a ton of information on his art installation at the Japanese American museum and his new line of art shoes for DC. I spent Friday night baking cookies for the band. I even went through my wig collection to donate to the band because I had read about a hilarious spoof they had done of Bret Michaels and Axle Rose.

At a previous show on the tour they had gone on stage with wigs and done a mash up of Sweet Child Of Mine and Bleed it out. Cookies, wigs and some packets of cat butt gum. I was set for what I thought would be a super fun interview.


Mike Shinoda's
website was another reason for my happy delirium. It has tons of great information and funny videos that gave me the impression that Mike would be a ton of fun to talk to. My favorite videos were on a cotestant on Indonesian Idol positively MANGLING Linkin Parks Numb and another video for Vern Fonk Insurance. "Honk for Fonk"


Absolutely hysterical.


Walking backstage at the show, I felt ready for anything.

Anything EXCEPT what actually happened.


First we met Corey one of the bands reps. I was so excited that I told her all about the cookies. As I did I watched her face darken and cave in on itself. She muttered something and walked away.  A few minutes later an angry bald man named George introduced himself as security and tried to take the bag away from me. I desperately tried to explain what I had, even mentioning he could have the cookies but "Please don't take the wigs, they are part of my interview and a gift for the guys".  He SNEERED  at me with one eyebrow raised "what do wigs have to do with anything?!". He then snatched the bag and I watched him take it toward the trash can.


I was standing there crestfallen and stunned but trying to gather my thoughts because we are now just moments away from the interview. I was waiting with our sound engineer in what appeared to be a backstage work out room. The bands road manager came in and said we would have to break down our equiptment and take it next door because Mike was in the middle of an "epic Halo tournament" and did not want to have to stop and talk.


They threw me in a room full of people playing Halo. Entering the room as I did was not as embarrassing as I thought it would be because absolutely no one looked away from their games.  It was at this precise moment that all of my excitement and preparation went right out the window. I was no longer a human being but diminished down to something akin to a pesky gnat who would be quickly dispatched.

I sat down next to Mike and mentioned the wigs I had brought to which he replied in a exasperated monotone "that was SO four days ago".  I TRIED to get through the rest of the questions I had prepared but, have you ever tried to talk to someone who is not connected to the conversation???  It was as frustrating as it was futile but I took a deep breath and plowed through WISHING that he knew that I was not just a dj trying to put a crimp in his day. I was actually a HUGE fan who loved and respected all that they had accomplished with their music and in his case art.


There was some bizarre irony in speaking to Mike about Glorious Excess the art show he had recently held in Los Angeles. The theme of which was built around a character he described as being filthy rich, morally bankrupt and totally lacking in any sort of social grace. I found it difficult to reconcile the juxtaposition of that characters mental image with the dismissive one I was experiencing sitting there, in living color, being deliberately treated with such open disdain by someone completely oblivious to their own staggering lack of grace


For a band of Linkin Parks experience I am surprised by how little regard they have for their fans or the professionals who promote their music not just for a living but in my case out of pure love. 
The behavior I witnessed backstage by the band and the people in their entourage reminded me of a story by William Sydney Porter who is better known by his pseudonym...O. Henry.


O. Henry
was mortified in his day by the snobbish and condescending pronouncement of socialite Ward McAllister who decreed that in all of New York there were only 400 people who were really worth noticingO. Henry's eloquent retort came in the form of a collection of short stories he called The Four Million.  His idea was that no matter what you are or who you are...rich man, poor man, beggar man, thief,  You are valuable.  We all are. 

Everyone is worth knowing.
 

Including silly no name redheads with a bag full of homemade cookies and free fake hair.

Here is WHY I am DROOLING to interview Mike Shinoda at the show Saturday
Friday 08-22-2008 5:20pm CT